November 21, 2005.
It was already scheduled to be a big day as I had my court appearance for the divorce this morning. It took all of 5 minutes to get the judge's signature on the order, and I managed the whole thing without tripping over my feet and landing in his lap. That's a good thing.
As quickly as the court part went, the clerk part was not. Quick, that is. I waited 2 hours for the court clerk to make a certified copy of my decree. See, you have to have that to change your name on your driver's license and social security card and all of those other places where you have told someone that you have a name. So, I waited. I was absolutely convinced that she was hand scribing the damn thing.
So, I am divorced. Yikes. I have had a couple of panic attacks when I think of the reality of being single with two small children. Beyond that I am just really, really sad.
Knowing that (I am sad) think of the mind blow when I stepped on the scale and discovered that I have achieved goal weight. Yes! On the day I end my marriage, I end my diet. Funky weird mixed emotions are everywhere. And, get this, I didn't just hit goal weight. Nope, I sailed right past it to 148.5 because why would I ever be allowed to actually see my goal weight pop up on the scale? Yeah, because that would be the expected outcome. Not that I am complaining. Since I am aiming a little lower for good measure (like to the low 140s - I will fine tune it as I see how I look/feel) the bonus half pound is all good.
We are going to move the car, but it does weird things when you lose more than your goal. So, I am going to put in that I am at goal and not beyond goal. If I can adjust to all the stuff that is going on around here, y'all can deal with the ticker confusion. Right?? Thought so.
2 comments:
I have never visited your site before, but saw on fat fighter blogs that you'd reached goal - and that you were sad. I have to visit, and say congrats! I'm sorry that your goal came at a time when it was maybe a bit overshadowed by saddness, but I think you are awesome... with what was going on, to reach goal the same day, well - as you mentioned, there's some heavy symbolism there. Congrats, and I hope the new changes all work out fabulously for you.
One thing is clear... with all that's going on, you reached your goal. In doing so, you demonstrated to your children that they have a strong mommy! So I think you'll do just fine as a single mother!
AWESOME GINA!! You really are amazing. Did you even get anywhere near 200 workouts?
I'm just so astounded, and happy for you.
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